Not enough hours!

To me, there are simply not enough hours in a day to accomplish everything I need to do and everything I want to do. I knew student teaching was going to be a lot of work and even though it is only two weeks in, I'm just starting to plan now because I was observing for the first two weeks. Nothing is more refreshing than having no clue what you're doing, haha. i'm trying to think how I can make tomorrow's lesson fun (while still incorporating workbook pages)...and I'm at a loss...hence why I am up before 9AM on a Sunday when I don't have to be at work til 1. And I'm procrastinating. I'm the master procrasinator. Give me a prize, please. I know it will all work out. I have faith.

But, is it sad that part of me can't wait til it is Friday? I know it's pathetic but Friday is diversity day at school, so it will be presentations/no "teaching". It's also the last day before February break! :) That means the week after (President's week), I can sleep in as late as I want, even though I still have work at night, tutoring two nights, and class one night. But hey, I'll take it over getting up at 5:30/6 every morning.

This weekend is making me almost wish I didnt work as much. I need the $$ but seriously, worked Friday 5:30-10, all day yesterday and 1-9 today. They have two hosts because it is Valentine's Day weekend. Hopefully we made good $$ last night in tips. The servers were saying their sales were outta control. I work tomorrow night on actual Valentine's Day so let's hope it is busier than the normal Monday night.

Friday before work, I went shopping for more clothes for student teaching. It is ridiculous how long it takes me to find a pair of pants that will fit! I did find one in gray from Ann Taylor Loft (used my student discount!) but they need a little hemming...so just another thing I have to do on my vacation. I also found a cute peach colored shirt with little ruffles around the neckline. At NY&Co, all their shirts were buy one, get one 50% off. Plus, I had a promo code in my email spend $100 or more, get $50 off. So I ended up with 4 shirts, a necklace and earrings for like a little over $100 after the coupon! I was happy.

I have been wanting to re-dye my hair for months now and my mom finally did it for me when I came home from work last night. Here's a pic of it. Sorry for the silly face, it was late when I took it and thats how I felt after dealing with weirdos all day long at work! Kinda hard to tell the color because I used my webcam on my MacBook Pro but its a chocolate caramel color :)
time to go make my bed and hope it'll make me feel inspired to do my lesson!

Life as we Know it

Today, I was kind of feeling blah. But not really til, I got home. My lovely cooperating teacher lets me come in at 8:30 so the extra hour I sleep is a HUGE difference. Although, I must buy creamer soon for my coffee because regular milk in it with my Splenda (I'll admit...I put a lot in! :X) does NOT do it for me. And as soon as I got in my car this morning, I realized I needed to get gas. It was starting to go below the 1/4 of a tank line. I didn't get it until AFTER student teaching. Whoops.

School is going good. I definitely need to speak Spanish to myself in places...the shower (haha), car, my friends who are also studying to be Spanish teachers, etc. I almost feel intimidated because my cooperating teacher is a native/speaks it perfectly. Today, we reviewed more time with the 7th graders and they get a quiz tomorrow. I'm a big dork but I love grading papers. When I have my own classroom, I can't wait to put stickers on them. HAHA. I did the "Hagan Ahora" aka "Do Now" with 5th & 7th period (2 eighth grade classes) and gave them the new chapter vocabulary to look up. I had to tell them more than half of them because they don't listen or don't want to do the work. I am suppose to be observed next week on Thursday. Here's to hoping it goes well! I hope I have that "natural look/feeling" that my cooperating teacher last semester said I had! (Part of me wishes I stayed, part of me is glad I moved on.)

I am a little annoyed about my seminar class last night. It goes along with student teaching and is suppose to meet 7-9:41(why 41...it is such an odd time!). However, the professor wanted to move it up to 5 which is fine because I have my thesis class before but it is really only when you need "help" with the last two sections of the paper. So we go there and my professor from my part-time student teaching seminar from last semester is there with her undergrad student teachers. Why am I annoyed? Because this woman made class like a therapy session last semester, kept cancelling it ALL the time, and I feel like I learned nothing! Put 8 grad students, 5 or 6 undergrads and 2 professors in a room and it was LOUD. I really learned diddly squat last semester. Hopefully it won't be too bad (I'm trying to be optimistic) but I honestly don't want to spend another $3000 for a class that doesnt benefit me!

So after school and tutoring today, I went to Target. I was looking for dress pants and any nice tops they might have for school because, I love Target & their prices. I needed new mascara (mine always clumps so fast!), dry-erase spray & eraser for my white board. As always, I browse the entertainment section. When I saw this movie, I had to buy it. I saw it on a date, loved it and love the actress in it. It definitely brightened my day. What movie is it?..........
If you haven't seen it, you must!

Time to go to bed. I am wiped.This weekend will be insane with work because of a tomorrow night, double Saturday and double Sunday. My brother (who has been teaching for like 15 years) said I am crazy for working while I student teach. I literally have 5 periods of the day I could plan (first - sit in the room & do it or go to the computer lab, 3rd during APP aka study hall, 6th during lunch, 8th during common planning and 9th when my teacher is free). My job isnt that bad (4 hour shift on Monday night) and then the weekend. I do have a money in the bank but I want some extra cash. I'm a bit of a night owl and can deal with a lack of sleep. Hopefully now that they hired a new host I wont have to work doubles on Saturdays anymore. But if I get Sunday evenings, I'll be happy because I can sleep past 12. I know I should focus more on lesson plans but I just took a look at the student teaching handbook and it doesn't seem that hard. All I know is after tomorrow, there are five school days left and then Feb break!! :)

What I'm Loving Wednesday :)

It's that day again!!

I'm linking up with Jamie for WILW. :)



So, what am I loving this week?

#1. I'm loving that my cooperating teacher came back on Monday. It was nice to finally meet him, get to observe his teaching style, learn/familiarize myself with the students, etc. Theres seventh grade classes (one of which is all native speakers) and 3 8th. I can't wait to start TEACHING! Hopefully tomorrow or Friday.

#2. I mentioned my cooperating teacher has a natives class. I was told by the chairperson I'm not allowed to teach it. I'll do whatever they want me to. Because I can't teach, my cooperating teacher was like "Come in at 8:30 if you want instead of 7:30." I'm loving that! The extra hour of sleep makes ALL the difference.

#3. I'm loving that in two months I will be visiting this lovely lady for her birthday!

(Me & My BFF Stephy)

#4. I'm loving Glee.....yes, a little late on this bandwagon. But my bestie Olivia is somewhat (okay, maybe super) obsessed with it. We watched the Britney & Madonna episodes before we went to Disney, my itunes is now infused with Glee music, now I just need to start watching.

#5. I'm loving my Kindle! I'm reading a book called "The Pressures of Teaching" during lunch at student teaching. I just feel like the book doesnt compare anymore.

#6. I'm loving my vacation from school from Feb 21-25. 5 days of massive sleep! And room organization.

#7. I'm loving the surprise that a group of my friends and I are sending to our friend Heather in Indiana. She's gonna love it!

Remember to link up!!! :)
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Thinking of doing a giveaway! So many blogs i have come across are either doing a giveaway or someone has won one. So it has inspired me to do one. I'd love more followers (as creepy as it may be...who doesn't want more blog friends?!). So, when I reach 25 followers, I'll do a $25 giftcard to one of these places (Target, Wal-Mart, Victoria's Secret (only bc it's my fav store), Starbucks, etc) or a Visa for their choice! Spread the word, follow, and then once it happens, I'll let y'all know!!

Quick update

I havent written in almost a week and it's because I am either at school, work, doing homework/lessons or trying to sleep.

My cooperating teacher came back yesterday. He seems really nice! He has two 7th grade classes first and second period. I can't teach first period because it is a natives class. That is fine by me. Since it is all native speakers, my cooperating teacher said I can sit in on it if I want, but I can come in at 8:30 for 2nd period. Fine by me! After 2nd, he has a study hall, followed by two 8th grade classes, lunch, another 8th grade class, common planning for LOTE (Language Other Than English) and then a free period. I usually work on lessons or google ideas for them during the free periods. Lunch, I play on my crackberry.

Tomorrow I'm doing a Hagan Ahora (Do Now) for the 8th graders. Hopefully it goes well. I need to do more things in the front because soon it is going to be my class...my responsibility!!

Time to go to bed. I'm too tired to function. I'll post more tomorrow.

XoXo, Moi.

What I'm Loving Wednesday :)

I'm linking up with the lovely Jamie for WILW!

I'm loving that my cooperating teacher and I finally got to speak tonight. He's been out with back problems for two weeks tomorrow and I haven't been able to figure out what I am doing. I feel MUCH better about the situation now (although what I did just find out from my mom makes me wish something diff....I'll explain later) and I am totally looking forward to finally meeting him on Monday!

I'm loving I had a lazy day today and stayed home from student teaching due to icey roads. It was a 2 hr delay and the classes were 20 mins....not worth it!

I'm loving this little cute. My pride & joy. My goddaughter. I saw her (and her siblings) last night. I love being her godmother & aunt:
(her recital this past summer...note it was 1030pm by the time we finally got to see her after she danced).

I'm loving the idea of going back here in August with my goddaughter, her siblings, her parents and my mom:


I'm loving this dress from Ann Taylor Loft. I wish I had an excuse/place to wear it!
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*Side note: My mom was shoveling ice away from our mailbox when the mother of one of my brothers friends stopped by as she was driving down the street. She's the secretary in our high school. Evidently my mom told her my predicament/problems with getting placed for student teaching and apparently, had I asked her, she would've placed me in my district!!! UGH! And it's because my stupid college tells us that my home district is one we can't "pre-place ourselves." WHY OH WHY. Just another reason I hate my college. HAHA.

Time to go find something to eat, pick out an outfit for tomorrow (I'm not good at making decisions at 6:15am when I get outta the shower) and watch SVU before hitting the hay!

bright side...

True Life: I just had a good cry after I posted that last blog post. Do I feel better? Aside from my nose running, yes. I feel like crying let some of the anger out.

And it's this lady that made me feel somewhat better:

My lovely mother with me in Spain.


She puts up with a lot of sh*t, raised five kids by herself (not by choice, by being widowed), and is always there to give me the bright side of life. Thanks mom.

...not happy...

so not happy right now. at all. disappointed? SEVERELY. i honestly feel like sitting here and crying because i am just frustrated. do i think it's pathetic that i want to sit here and cry over stupid things? yes. did i do it? for about 3 minutes.

i've got a fiery temper to say the least. it can either take a LOT to tick me off or very little. stupid things like taking my wet laundry out of the washing machine and throwing it in a laundry basket because there is stuff in the dryer so you can put your own load in DEFINITELY aggravates me. i have a tendency to forget about my laundry (so it is partially my fault) because depending upon the cycle you use (whites, delicates, etc), the time varies. so my brother decided to do that and needless to say, i screamed out of being pissed off and dropped the F-bomb a buncha times. necessary? no. annoyed? yes. he could've easily taken the crap in the dryer, thrown it in the empty laundry basket, put my stuff in, started it and THEN started his load. do i feel bad i yelled? yes, because i was acting like a 4 yr old and not a 24 yr old. it just annoys me because my siblings do it all the time and granted, if i go to do laundry and they've left stuff in the dryer, i at least put their stuff in to dry! ugh, i over-analyze stupid little things like this but it just annoys me.

i also think i'm pms-ing too and that tends to make me annoyed. seriously, i haven't screamed like i did tonight in probably weeks (my mom would probably beg to differ). whatever. i have a fiery temper. nothing new. i need something constructive to change it and i really wanna run...not gonna happen in the snow or gym. no time (although im sure if i killed myself and woke up at 4am, i could go run). also not happening.

bottom line? i think it stems from the issues im having with student teaching. day two today. no teacher. still out, apparently hoping to be back tomorrow (wednesday) or thursday. i get different updates from the office and the other LOTE teachers. i called his cell. no answer...maybe he isnt available? i'll email him again in the morning (because it might be weird to send it at 11:52pm and then see him possibly). i just feel super overwhelmed, like i have no idea what i'm doing. and i ask myself, "is this placement going to work out?" because i dont want to have to switch...ugh. PRETTY PLEASE, PRAY/WISH/HOPE THAT MY TEACHER COMES IN TOMORROW (unless we have a snow day) or THURSDAY (if he doesn't tomorrow). I'm ready to pull out my hair.


When it gets nice out, I'm going to go running. If I have to go join a gym [again], so help me i will.

I wish I could go have a glass of wine right now. Sadly, it's something lacking in the house. That or I don't know where the corkscrew is. Or I simply just need a smack to snap me into reality and stop flipping out over stupid things.

Might wanna get my laundry out of the dryer now before it ends up outside in the snow or something.